At 16, you take things way to seriously. Relax and enjoy life- it isn’t that black or white or that life and death. Grades and boys are not everything. Take some risks and do some stupid stuff. As long as you don’t hurt yourself or others, it will be okay. You are a good kid who needs to be a bit rebellious. Better to do it now than later in life.
You are this mix of certainty and uncertainty. You think you know better than your parents but at the same time you are insecure about where you belong. Rest assured that you will figure it out in time. Somewhere in your early 30’s you will realize that your parents do know somethings Dad does give good advice and ask him when you are unsure. Mom’s nagging is because she loves you. You don’t have to belong in a certain culture, you have the best of both worlds.
At this point you aren’t sure about what you want to be when you grow up, my advice to you is to choose something that allows you to help people. You may not know it then but compassion will be a strong driver in your life. You will find something that you love and that fulfills you and if you don’t that is okay too. You have other things in life that make you happy.
You have lots of dreams and I say go for it, sounds cliché but don’t let others limit what you or who you want to be. Take every opportunity to travel and see the world; it will only make you happy. Be adventurous and don’t let preconceived ideas of what you should or shouldn’t be doing or who you should or shouldn’t be limit you. It is okay to be different from your sisters.
You are a pretty capable, intelligent, and amazing person. You just haven’t realized it yet. You go on to do some really cool stuff in life and have some fun adventures. Talk to random people and smile at them. It actually brings you great joy in life.
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