Rain and the Bus

On Wed. I was on my way to work and had just stepped out of the skytrain station (skytrain is like the subway but above ground) and was on my way to the bus stop, when I see the bus at the corner. I pick up the pace so I can get on this one and do not have to wait in the rain for the next one, only to slip on the curve, land with a resounding thud on my ass, twist my ankle, and bruise my fragile ego. The worst part was that I was wearing a skirt too. I sat there stunned for a moment and gathered what little pride I had and proceeded to hobble up onto the bus. I was so embarrassed and the bus driver kept asking me if I was ok. With my swollen ankle and wet skirt, I manage to feebily reply that I was ok, only to feel completely humiliated on the inside.

That was the start of my day. The day at work was not much better...the dragon lady strikes again. Luckily the saving grace was that my nephew came over, when I got home from work. He is still as cute as ever, a little bit of a munchkin and roly poly. I absolutely adore him to pieces.

Happy Anniversary

I realized today that this weekend was my one year anniversary of arriving home from Japan. I came home a year ago on Aug. 20th amid optomistic and perhaps too idealistic hopes. This year has indeed gone by fast, suprisingly fast considering how at some points it was quite a struggle even to get up in the morning without pangs of feeling like "what the heck am I doing here?". It has been a retrospective year filled with struggles and a bit of self discovery.

My last year in Vancouver has been interesting, I thought that things would be the way I had left them when I went to Japan, but it definately was not. I have said this before, life in Japan is like living in a bubble and when the bubble bursts you think that things outside of it are as you remember it to be. Nope! Wrong.....wrong...wrong....I am far too idealistic for my own good. In fact, almost everything has changed around me, and about me. It has been an eye openner here. I think that at this point I am still learing about all these changes and learning how to deal with it.

I figure that once I learn to deal with everything I will have reached an enlightened state. Life is complex, if you have not figured it out. That much I know for sure, (as well as learning about selling my soul to the retail commercialism called the Bay and learning a bit about real estate). Somedays I am not ready to deal with the complexities of it and would just rather stay in bed. Then there are those days where I am optimistic and hopeful that I will figure it out and eventually become a grown up .....hopefully there are more of those days than the stay in bed days.....

Even with all the difficulties it is good to be home.....