MIA

I have been away for a while from my blog, both physically and consciously. All apologies for the MIA (missing in action), to those faithful readers of the goings on in the Wacky World of Char. The things I have been writing about lately, just seem so trivial and so inconsequential. It feels like the things I have been writing about just have not been coming from my heart. It lacks my usual enthusiasm and spirit.

The thing is that as of late, my world has not been so wacky, in terms of adventures in wonderful and exotic lands, nor in meeting of random people who stalk me. So it feels like there is nothing I am really excited to blog about. My life has been crazy in terms of finding myself in a place that I cannot actually place. I am at a point where nothing is really concrete and everything seems like it is in suspension. I am in fact in transition and let me tell you it has been a difficult time here. Things have not turned up rosey as I had expected upon my return to Canada. I find myself in a position that has been hard for me to adjust to, living at home, working in a job that I do not love, not having the chance to travel, and of course the involuntary relationship abstinence (that is a given in my life and I have gotten used to that), among the changes in relationships with my 2 year absence. I am not complaining about my life because I know that I am extremely blessed to have a wonderful family who allows their 25 year old daughter to once again invade their space and live with them and of course the fact that I am employed.

It is just that I had imagined my life at ......25 a little differently. Not married nor in a career persay, but at a place where I am sure of the direction that I am supposed to head in. Oh, the joys of life post Japan and the depression that goes with it. How can I smile, when I feel like there is nothing to smile about.

I am sure that I will figure it out soon, afterall you are not given challenges that you cannot overcome, you just have to try a little harder.